I'm at the airport now - checked in and waiting to board. Flight is little delayed- due to light snow. Its beautiful to watch through the glass wall. As I walked by I happen to see a shocking this -"a black man is working as shoe polisher, see white men sitting on raised chair showing their legs to polisher." I felt humiliated - how could this happen in this 21st century - in a well developed country like canada - a nation of great respect for humanity. How could you stretch your leg to somebody while reading paper and they guy polishes your shoes...shame on you -whoever the people went for a polish. The guy work for somebody and he get only a small share of $7/idiot. I talked to the guy for a while to get an idea when he thinks about it. He is a former government employee/network admin got laid off. I told him I could find him a job right away I get back and gave my phone/email. Guy is a smart one. He said he wants to get to know of the people who work here so that he get an opportunity to start a business inside or land in a decent profession. The shoe polishing setup is quite funny - the one like in old days. Its like road side barber shop. People - can't you afford a new shoe or are you so lazy to polish your own shoes when going on a travel. If its dirty - who cares - just go the way it is. Good thing I didn't make a scene of having to fight to whoever comes for shoe polish. Atleast I am got over with the bad feeling but I am going to lodge a complaint to the authorities regarding this and I don't want to see this here when I come back. Or this is going to media!

My akshara mani malai

Sadhguru,

In old days - mukthas/ yogis/ munis/siddhas wrote 'akshara mani malai' or galands of songs like garlands of flower dedicated to gods - samarpanam to gods. Devotees of less conscious used flowers to garland their master/guru/god - these realised beings used songs/devarams like Manikavasagar. Ramana maharishi gave 'akshara mani malai'. There's another sithar can't remember his name - who consumed parrots body - also gave some songs(arunagiri nathar I believe).

So this is my way of garlanding - a blog garland with lots of flower posts. How is that?

Well that's all I am capable of - to write and write. I don't know if I'm making a beautiful garland that other may like - and I do not care -I simply make the garland in whatever way I think of. I have no intention of selling this garland and making money out of it - neither do I have plans to beautify to look better for somebody so that they keep come back to see my garland. As long as the world of internet lives - as long as google lives - this garland lives. In a way this garland got quite a life time.

So....SAMARPANAM

Sadhguru,

"ithaiyum pathivu panna venum" (vijaytv gopinath style):

(want make this to be documented/posted/broadcasted/written/printed/whatever it is)

As you've mentioned Sadhguru, loneliness is a biggest problem for people.

I had it too. It was painful. You can't sit with yourself. Well - that's how we were taught right. You want to live with somebody not alone. Living alone is scary thing. You feel like abandoned. Specially when you have good companionship of caring people throw you out or diplomatically tell you to move out but you don't want to b'se you want to be accompanied. So you tell them you will move out but you know you won't. Finally they get really strict on you -you started to hate the same people you cherished - what a selfish attitude. Those people help you all they can and you will hate them b'se you can't put up with your loneliness. It was torturing sometime - finally its gone for ever. When you know you can live alone - not only outwardly, even psychologically no companion needed- you feel tremendous freedom that gives you a freedom to live alone or to live with any kind of cruel or beautiful people. You will know how to handle people - face situations. But I really got lost in certain incidents back them - b'se the work I did consumed lots of inner and physical energy. What a shame on humanity - you can't even make a simple basic living. So torturous the work- even I didn't cross my basic expenses. So hard- so hated it - came to a point, didn't know what to do - how to escape of it. Then change came - I moved out of city - to different work, living enviornment - relatively peaceful work - less demanding - less of cruel boss.

So that's loneliness - it can be faced. Only if you can throw everything/everyone out and face it determinedly. Well that's what needed to find out about life - a strong - discriminatory mind -a determined mind - courageous enough to go through any level of surges. In other words - you live with death - you are willing to face death. Thats the ultimate - an ultimate problem one can have in life - to face death - face to face. No problem in the world stands anymore. Either existencial or otherwise -nothing left. Money making become so simple - but you don't want it b'se you know the cruality that can bring to others. You strive and strive - not to make money but not to have money and to live a simple life. Isn't it amazing - in this world of so greed of money - you keep yourself untouched by it. Like Ramakrishna paramahansar had alergic to it- he won't even touch it. Money has become so ugly product now that people will do anything for it. They will even legally kill you (like selling cigarette 2 for discount) to profit out of you. You can write most popular book in the world that would make you millions but for what - who is the reader. Whatever people need to know/learn is already written. A polised writings sugar coated with marketting tactics will sure will take you financially atop. But this simple living taking a toll on one. Consumes lots of energy - had to take shit from greedy idiots for nothing- have to bend down to their unethical demands. If god have some mercy on these people, he/she should lift off this physical limitations so that they don't have to suffer. I heard that time is coming- sure I won't be living long enough to see/experience that or have no interest of coming back. Enough- seriously. Its not out of frustration - its because no much meaning to it as the way it is now. Work, eat mate, sleep and die one day - what a silly way of living.

Sadhguruuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu,

I'm coming..I'm coming ...I'm comingggggggggggggggggg

You would never have seen a wildest disciple like me ;) So be prepared to give some 'savukadi' to the 'me' die and you blossom.

What a world we are living in today..

everywhere you turn you see stupidity

they judge on you continuously - one can feel

"he is like ...." , "he is like tada..."

pleasure of teasing/laughing at others give people joy

an ugly way of having joy.

people laugh at you if you are short

people laugh at you if you wear a certain kind of snow hat

people make remarks b'se u're different race/color and laugh

if one is not established oneself into certain mode of consciousness it can hurt you

torment you...insult you....wanting to make revenge on the person and like.

Can you believe some people even make fun of a sick person too...

the guy is sick and you would make fun of him

Oh god what a humiliating society is this.

Everything is money money and money...

there's no conversation within two that has no talk of money.

I make this much...how much do you

I am this...what are you

I have this..what have you

She is mine...who's yours

One more thing:

my stupid boss said,

"you work hard and have good feeling and sleep well with the satisfaction of having done good job"

What this stupid boss about to find out is -

you don't sleep b'se you worked hard.

you sleep b'se your body need to relax.

you don't get satisfaction from what you did.

you do what you can with involvement, that what matters

you don't do things to please somebody

hmm....ok...that's it for now Sir.

Dear Sadhguru,

Time is coming - the day I'm about to leave. I can feel there's going to be great changes on the way for me.

2 days back something happened. One lady visited the house and they introduced me to her. Little after a while she didn't like the way people are here. She had tears in her eyes and came into my room shaken. I gave her console and told her this is not a place for you. Then she said why are am I living here. I told her I have little or no interaction with these people - as long as I'm that way nothing touches me except physically - I'm poisoned with their self centered smoking habits. Its just disrespectful towards me. So she asked me to come stay in her place - no rent - she'll cook for me and stuff. I told her I'll be gone to india for sometime - but I'll keep this my mind. She introduced her daughter when she came to pick her up. This is not a simple thing for somebody to offer something like this in this greedy world - everything is money oriented. I was overwhelmed by this. Hmm...

Then today I was shoveling - this old man lives next door came and talk to me. He said - he has a nice place for me to stay in his house if I'm interested for me being quiet and nice boy. He knows me quite some time now. He has a well kept place too.

For the first time - yesterday I told the owner that we have to make some changes here. I didn't threaten him that 'or I'll move out' - it will be disrespectful to talk like that. He responded that he will make the change I've requested. I couldn't make the request on non-smoking in house. They won't. I know its too much of a request for them - addicted to the core of it.

Let see how it goes...

Pranam...

Amazing flower

This was on blogger preview in an unknown language. Never seen one like this before. Simply superb! A dancing rose or we can call it 'baratha natya rose'. Shaded blend of red and white with twist and turns. Wonder where these flowers bloom... Look at those converging petals. This is unique -non replicable - lotus kind of a rose.

When a girl dances baratha natyam - her whole body shows diferent dimensions of dance: hands, legs, fingers, face expression - that kind of flower this/she is - her every petals show different movement of expressions.

Just like this flower has no purpose of blooming - it simply is - this blog is. No purpose what so ever. No intention of impressing anyone or hurting anyone or trying to make a point to somebody or canvassing/lobbying. Each post will be a blossom - samarpanam to sadhguru.

Cutie pie...

Wondered what is a tumbe flower which is favorable to Adi yogi Shiva.

Quote - "realized beings are not carbon copies - their may be roses, jasmine , little tumbe - all are good in the garden" - is sadhguru's words. That's what today's education does to make everyone into one level (like a shrub decoration people have infront of the houses - all trimmed in horizontal).

What we are making is some educated fools with some letters behind their names, continuously thinking about survival. Heard of a research done on the effects of the current education system: 20years of schooling(upto phd's) will irrevocably damage the intelligence of a child.

Now I know what tumbe is:

Here's an electronic eternal tumbe flower 'samarpanam' to Sadhguruji. Well I don't quite like the idea of offering flowers to gods or exchange of flowers within couple/lovers. A flower had to be kept alive and let to live on the plant it got bloomed in. Why do we need a dead flower to please anyone or for personal pleasure. Why can not we just sit and watch the flower, right from where it is - on the plant -and enjoy the beauty of it.

So I don't care Sadhguru if you get mad at me for offering an electronic (now may be dead) flower but thats all I can offer. By the way, why do anyone offer anything to anybody - to please? kind of bribing? This western way of gifting culture though it may has some good aspects in it like you willing share what is your with others or you don't know how else to express your love but its all turned ugly, non sustainable due to extremity of gifting culture, kind of egoistic war on who is giving what and deciding how much they are valued depending on what gift they receive or just giving something they don't really want to give but doing it because if not the other person feel left out or gifting things that gives no value to the person who receive. Already we are raping this earth with all our might and do we need another organized mass single raping event like this. If one's heart is flowered and really want to gift on a day Christ was born - give a gift to people who value that most, who is deprived, who is denied of opportunities just because he/she was born where he/she was born or adopt, be a father, mother to a kid who has parents and include him/her as your own child. Its about inclusiveness that makes a son or daughter yours not just because he/she was a biological product of two partners. We gotta put a bloody cap on this population. Greatest and most greatest invention of humanity is not computers, rockets all that - a simple rubber is -condom. Can't imagine how many unwanted child would've born and thrown out in mass production as a side effects of people's uncontrollable apatite for intercourse. The word itself has so much ugly vibration in it - woman are tortured, even children are not spared no matter boy or girl. So much corrupted, twisted minds will do anything if an opportunity arises. AIDS is a greatest punishment to it by nature. People are atleast watchful now with minimal ignorant indulgence. One can not comment on the way creation is made but feel like there should've been a better organization of experiencing physical oneness and reproduction. Physicality of human beings are still in animal level. We mate like animals do - we breed like animals do - are we not supposed to reproduce like an evolved species or are we evolved at all.

Huh...this post of 'thought on an offer of tumbe to sadhguru' has grown and grown. Its like chain of thoughts - from one to other - it grows and grows. Thought grows in one dimension - wonder is it possible to have multi dimensional thoughts - its like from one breed different breeds grow or endless breeds grow, in other words its becomes a cloth of chains. Is that perception...

Okay...I bow down Sadhguru with this offer of "Tumbe" which Shiva loves and hope you would love too. I thought I never had exposed to this flower before - heard of the name like 'thumpai poo' but didn't know what. So sad I've been out of touch to simple natural things for long time. This flower too - I remember, have sweetness at the root. When we were children I remember we dip a tiny drop of flower honey in the tongue which give indescribably sweetness. I can still re-member the sweetness of it. I kind of miss all that little childhood pleasant exposures but its all for good that atleast I've "grown".

My first spiritual thirst....

It was so painful that day.

I couldn't take it anymore. It was piercing and hard to take. I didn't know what to do. I went to this popular church - walked on my knee some 100 steps. Wept in agony - begging to show me 'what's all this - please - show me", went to the extent of " or take me". That would've really touched him - he showed the way. Brought changes. All kind of unexpected, U turns happened - I just took the ride. I was saved from dangerous situations which would've put me into unrecoverable conditions. I was kicked out to face to world not to depend on anybody - just been thrown out. It just grew and grew in me.

I can not forget to write this....

Krishnaji....Jiddu Krishnamurti'ji

Whose talks and public discussions lead me to go beyond the experience of 5 senses. Was able to transcend from getting entangled into unnecessary troubles. He is a happened to guru for me. It just happened. I was intensely questioning all about the way life is. He happened.

Same way 'power of now' first happened. That was the first exposure to spirituality. Very deep pull towards it that lots of changes started happen in outer life. Thrown me into places where I won't even have thought of taking step into. Torturing loneliness was completely vanished. Simple was able to understand things clearly. Had a very good clarity of things and clear cut decision making state. Those days - for months I didn't work - just lived on savings - read and pondered nothing but spirituality - morning and night. That brought a tremendous effect and perception of things totally changed. All things fell in place - the suffering I had to go through were all meant for my good. I felt bad for others who are ignorantly living and want to take this to them - wanted to find out what is stopping them to come out.

Krishnaji's talks makes lots of changes in brain. One can watch things become active while listening to him.

Something happened at work yesterday...

Not a pleasant one.

Never ever had an interaction with boss like this before.

Very unfortunate to be in the situation.

I did everything I can to defend myself.

Just couldn't understand what's the incident supposed to mean.

A change in my physical existence or is it I'm taken towards doing the right thing externally or a karmic effect. I get karmic effect instantly within 1-2 days. I haven't done any action intentionally hurtful to anybody - don't know if I unintentionally did any. I am cautious about my actions. My boss has become greedy now. Financial position he's in now takes him to different levels of ugly personality. He is not the one he used to be - an easy going guy. Feel sad for him that he's going to pay for it. I'm in no way to preach him about the inner world I've encountered to - he won't know what I'm talking about. I do talk a little bit of that and this to people whenever get chance. Specially the lady who was scared of death. The punjabi old man talks too. I added some juice to the indian lady who work there - I feel compassionate towards her as she is going through lots of life turmoil and working hard. Coming from a land of spirituality she knows nothing about it. Religious identification is clearly visible on her. But she is very open person - very pleasant to talk to - will listen when I speak. Her eyes brights up when I say 'insha allah' as if her god is blessing her through my words. I just say that to make her happy and smile. Ladies are not meant to do the masculine kind of work - too sad world is going towards that even ladies have to be men on work place and eventually to personal life. One can see woman are like men when they talk to husbands - state of arrogance in them. That's not the nature of feminine.

Though there's nothing to be hurt personally about the incident happened yesterday - it really was a shake in my daily routine. Good thing it didn't turn ugly to the extent of me losing and walking out or him losing and kicking me out. It was an extreme version of disciplining a worker from an employer's point of view. For them its all about money, profit and growth - won't give a damn of employees wellbeing - don't know how they expect to milk the cow without taking care of it well. Another important thing is level of ignorance - they don't care what they sell or the effects of their products of consumers - they don't care to give what is best, what is needed to the other, rather cares how to rip other to maximize the profit. Very sad, unethical, dishonest, inhuman, ugly, pathetic way of making a living -this is. You don't trick an old man for your benifit. You don't trick one who's less informative of things. I'm stuck like a guinea pig - not knowing how to face this irregularities. Even a basic simple living has become a hell of an arduous job. Inevitably this all going to change I believe. Nature is already hammering places already with her mighty extreme weather condition. Here was relatively okay up until I consciously wished to have some extremes so that atleast people be put in line. But I too had to suffer physically so decided to stay put. Oh god...I started talking like Budha or something - people who read this going to think I'm some kind of avatar or something. People! - don't mistake me....I'm just bluffing - in the name of talking to Sadhguru. These words are encrypted in a way he only can understand thought you may seem to read.

This over night shit is getting on me. I saw the difference when I was off on how much of a difference it makes to sleep at night to sleeping in the day. What to do - day jobs are quite demanding, too much of competition, bossses will be behind watchind you all the time. They may pay you good but still you are an economic slave to them. You're not only physically theirs - your invaluable whole being will be under their control during your stay. Its more a like you're serving daily an 8hr jail time. Coming home - which is another jail. Oh god - what a pathetic situation we are in!

Even in home - I don't know what to do with this smoking fools. Don't give a damn about their smoke being harmful to others. So full of smoke. Really have to move out of this place. Too noisy in day - can't sleep properly. At times use ear plugs. All people live here live a pathetic animalistic life. There's no human in them. They are not living at all - simply existing - waiting to die one day. What a tragedy!

Sadhguru,

Enjoyed watching you say of creating 'isha crematorium' - not even dead can not escape from a drop of spirituality.

Speaks thousand words

Never seen a child's tear of this nature...

a child cry for a toy

a child cry for mother

In the world of utter mischief

children sleep, beg, work on streets

This...

Is NEW

Tear on a child with no crying.

• "http://www.ishafoundation.org/sadhguru-spot/day-of-the-goddess
• Here I am in the city of goddess Athena on the first anniversary of the birth of Linga Bhairavi, does that say something…"

Sadhguru, I think goddess Athena is no different from Linga Bhairavi - is that right...So what we are going to have is a goddess Athena going to be consecrated there. That way people around there will come back alive. Greek is considered western world's ancestry - they value is as great grand fathers place. To have Athena back to reality will bring lots of people back on line.

Thank you Sadhguru - for keeping us upto date. I'm also going to be replying to your blog, right here - don't know if you'll read or not. I had a thought why should I write at all - just "think" the reply intensely, he'll just receive it. Also thought I may get trapped in this joy of writing and may go less serious about 'self enquiry'. Hmm...lets see how it goes.

Take care sadhguru.

Sadhguru...whenever I thought of asking a question - the answer came from whatever source I'm in touch. Finally I'm in a state of 'no question'. Everything is answered. Most of the questions that was asked in the upcoming live session (with chris) I knew the answers. Actually I want to answer them - not an answer of my behalf but a answers that lies in finger tips as quotes from your discourses. Some questions are wrong ones - haven't even applied their simple logic to find out themselves - want somebody to answer for them.

Namaskaram Sadhguru

Dear Sadhguru,

I will be posting my message to you here. Would you please kindly accept...

Thank you