Something happened at work yesterday...

Not a pleasant one.

Never ever had an interaction with boss like this before.

Very unfortunate to be in the situation.

I did everything I can to defend myself.

Just couldn't understand what's the incident supposed to mean.

A change in my physical existence or is it I'm taken towards doing the right thing externally or a karmic effect. I get karmic effect instantly within 1-2 days. I haven't done any action intentionally hurtful to anybody - don't know if I unintentionally did any. I am cautious about my actions. My boss has become greedy now. Financial position he's in now takes him to different levels of ugly personality. He is not the one he used to be - an easy going guy. Feel sad for him that he's going to pay for it. I'm in no way to preach him about the inner world I've encountered to - he won't know what I'm talking about. I do talk a little bit of that and this to people whenever get chance. Specially the lady who was scared of death. The punjabi old man talks too. I added some juice to the indian lady who work there - I feel compassionate towards her as she is going through lots of life turmoil and working hard. Coming from a land of spirituality she knows nothing about it. Religious identification is clearly visible on her. But she is very open person - very pleasant to talk to - will listen when I speak. Her eyes brights up when I say 'insha allah' as if her god is blessing her through my words. I just say that to make her happy and smile. Ladies are not meant to do the masculine kind of work - too sad world is going towards that even ladies have to be men on work place and eventually to personal life. One can see woman are like men when they talk to husbands - state of arrogance in them. That's not the nature of feminine.

Though there's nothing to be hurt personally about the incident happened yesterday - it really was a shake in my daily routine. Good thing it didn't turn ugly to the extent of me losing and walking out or him losing and kicking me out. It was an extreme version of disciplining a worker from an employer's point of view. For them its all about money, profit and growth - won't give a damn of employees wellbeing - don't know how they expect to milk the cow without taking care of it well. Another important thing is level of ignorance - they don't care what they sell or the effects of their products of consumers - they don't care to give what is best, what is needed to the other, rather cares how to rip other to maximize the profit. Very sad, unethical, dishonest, inhuman, ugly, pathetic way of making a living -this is. You don't trick an old man for your benifit. You don't trick one who's less informative of things. I'm stuck like a guinea pig - not knowing how to face this irregularities. Even a basic simple living has become a hell of an arduous job. Inevitably this all going to change I believe. Nature is already hammering places already with her mighty extreme weather condition. Here was relatively okay up until I consciously wished to have some extremes so that atleast people be put in line. But I too had to suffer physically so decided to stay put. Oh god...I started talking like Budha or something - people who read this going to think I'm some kind of avatar or something. People! - don't mistake me....I'm just bluffing - in the name of talking to Sadhguru. These words are encrypted in a way he only can understand thought you may seem to read.

This over night shit is getting on me. I saw the difference when I was off on how much of a difference it makes to sleep at night to sleeping in the day. What to do - day jobs are quite demanding, too much of competition, bossses will be behind watchind you all the time. They may pay you good but still you are an economic slave to them. You're not only physically theirs - your invaluable whole being will be under their control during your stay. Its more a like you're serving daily an 8hr jail time. Coming home - which is another jail. Oh god - what a pathetic situation we are in!

Even in home - I don't know what to do with this smoking fools. Don't give a damn about their smoke being harmful to others. So full of smoke. Really have to move out of this place. Too noisy in day - can't sleep properly. At times use ear plugs. All people live here live a pathetic animalistic life. There's no human in them. They are not living at all - simply existing - waiting to die one day. What a tragedy!